10.28.2009
10.27.2009
hello, world...

life can't be rewind, so what's the point to be emo?
live the life to the fullest..
haha hihi huhu hehe hoho

i really began my day with a smile =)

today is my 'o'lvl math exam..
oopss...
has yet started to study anything..
wish me good luck.. =)
10.26.2009
totally mood-less today...
intended to go library to study math for the coming exam tmr,
but in the end, didn't study anything..

sat down, saw a book titled "depression"
criteria :
1. having mood swing very often
2. angry with someone for no particular reason
3. often feel like crying for no particular reason
4. bla bla bla
5. bla bla bla

there are still some others criteria, but i couldn't remember it..
but, am i really depressed?
because i totally fulfil those 3s..

my emo-ness was getting stronger & stronger..
for no reason, i went to changi village..
i really didn't know why i went there..

sitting there listening to music..
did 1 or 2 math qns..
looking at the sky, counting how many aeroplanes that passed by..
hmm.. 16?

and finally, he came...
i'm sorry for letting my mood to affect yours..

there's so many things in my mind now..
but i'm not gonna share it..

i'm just ...














"Since you dont want to share what u feel, just keep it inside because u are always like that. I dont know what to do to help u and to cheer u up right now.I'll just wait when u r feeling okay. I hope u become more open to me, maybe not now but sooooon.Im not just your lover, I am also ur best friend"

i don't know why after reading this msg, my tears suddenly rolled down from my eyes...
...
kept waiting for his coming, until i fell asleep..
how i wish he's beside me now...
but he's not..

i feel a bit regret after the sharing session..
he's always very open to me..
and i wish i am also..
it's to be fair..
but, ...

and why now there's always something happen on 25th?

maybe you shouldn't hv come either..
or it'll make u feel uneasy..
just have a good rest...






now is 4.53am, and i just cant walk into my dreamland..
10.25.2009
i just spent my sunday at home..
going nowhere..

chatted with him for the whole day..
and he shared a lot with me..

finally, i shared with him about him who i'd been secretly admired for almost a year...
i told him everything...

we also talked about his exes...
now i feel a bit scared..
i'm scared i'll be in his exes list too..

now, my ex list is still empty,
and i dont want it to be filled..
just want it to be blank...

am i over sensitive?
crazy
another crazy morning..
haha..

i'm alone at home now...

tmr is monday..
tues is my exam..
not yet prepared..
gonna study tmr..
really???
10.24.2009

to love a person, doesn't mean that person needs to be perfect...
but, it's to love every little imperfections that he has..
Saturday
Today is Saturday...
How I hope today is Sunday...
I want this week to end faster...
Today is his 1st day of work...
so went to send him...
feel like we're really a couple..
gf sending her bf to work...

Finally, he went off with his "colleagues".
so, I left too..
since I lost my ezlink,
so went to amk for replacement.. T.T

That's all for today...

Btw, is he really coming tonight???
bad mood =(
10.23.2009
went for math remedial..
not doing much practices, but kept shivering...

rushed home as my aunt needed to go out..
went out again to bugis..

suddenly he smsed me that he's smwhere near my house..
so, met him, & we headed to town together..

met shixin, walked around bugis..
saw alicia & nadz..
nadz went for interview @ coffee bean..
anyone is interested?

headed back home after few hours of walking...
i thought i left my ez link at home..
but...
hiks.. =((
i couldn't find it!
my 60 bucks is inside..

ezlink, 60 bucks, where are you??????????
don't hide please!
...
how do I know?
hmm...
i don't know either...
but, no one is backstabbing you...
maybe I just can sense that you really did...

I just made a guess..
somehow I hoped you'd deny..

but I'm very glad that you didn't..
at least you don't lie to me..

don't feel guilty.. I'm alright...
10.22.2009
i don't know why...
my emo-ness came to me again..

i just can't control my own emotion...
why do i always have to be like this?
i don't wish too..

why? why? why?
now my feeling is like ...
like ...
unexplainable..

.......................................................................................................................................................


bye-bye world...
=)
hi world..

basically, 1/4 of my day i spent @ orchard yesterday..
woke up early in the morning..
prepared & set off to yishun..
met nicole & had her bf, then cab to US embassy..
accompanied her for her interview for applying visa..
it was peak hour, and yeah, we were late..
reached there at around 9++ while her appointment was at 8.45..
she went it, and i was waiting "PATIENTLY" outside..
waiting for around ONLY 1 1/2 hr?
yeah, ONLY..

after that, walked around orchard..
few hours later, weilu joined us..
tried some tube dresses for prom night..
can't imagine myself wearing tube dress..
-_-"
& the prices are so "CHEAP"..
all are ONLY about 100 BUCKS..
so "cheap"..

basically what we did there was only dress hunting for prom night..
had been out since early in the morning..
decided to go home, but on the way home, dropped by amk..
and started dress hunting again..
but no result..

yeah, finally, went home..
my feet are aching..
walking whole day..



today is off day = fb day..
haha..
while he's busy with his interview..
first, no job at all, until now has some choices to choose..
congrats.. =)
heard that he starts working at next monday, 26.. =)




oh ya, next week is my o'math exam..
nearly forget about it..
didn't touch my math at all since last remedial..
& exam is just around the corner..
haha...

i'll only start working at the beginning of nov..
so, will just spend the rest of my week rotting.. =)
1st job, YEY!
10.20.2009
yey, i got it..
my very 1st job..
they said they'll inform us by end of this week or next..
didn't expect to be so fast..

got a call just now..
thought it was from precious tots..
so i pretended to be away..
then i suddenly become "there" alr when i heard it was from robinson..
haha..

then i was like super duper mega giga tera happy...
he was just beside me when i received that call..
i was so random & kept shouting yey in the bus..
he was looking at me like ...
haha..
random random random..

im happy but worried..
she still has yet received the call..
how how how???
please please please..
call her...
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



last wed : orchard
last thurs : orchard
last fri : orchard
tmr : orchard
3rd nov : orchard
5nov - 24 dec : orchard

orchard orchard orchard...

haha.. so random...
why?
although i think it's over,
but the feeling of jealousy still,
always comes to me whenever i see it...
job hunting
yesterday's schdedule was job hunting..
with suhaila...
it's quite tiring..
our legs were crying..

walked around the whole vivo..
every single corner we walked..
saw a few places that are hiring..
especially restaurant..
anyone wants any lobang?
haha...

applied in precious tots..
filled in our particulars & now waiting for call..

it's only around 4..
nowhere to go & decided to head to sengkang..
on our way there, saw the robinson advertisement..
actually we did see that, just didn't read..
quite good offer..
so we decided to turn back & went down to town again..

so, filled in our particulars again..
and they explained to us the details..
same, now only waiting for call..
if i do get this job,
i'll be working at centre point with suhaila, my great companion..
haha..

i wonder how if both places call us..



today's sch : going down to sch to help cikgu
bought all the stuff that she needs & will bring it later..
maybe going to town again as peiyi needs companion for job hunting..



tmr's sch : going to ica..
nicole wants me to accompany her for her interview for applying visa..



so yeah, that keeps me busy..
at least better than rotting at home...
outdated pics...
10.18.2009










adventure
having an adventurous "morning"...
this is the craziest thing that i've ever done..
wow..

first experience..
drank quite not little...
at least not drunk, just dizzy.. haha..

it was supposed to be a happy outing,
but it turned out the opposite..

overall, it was "fun"...
ssttt...
10.14.2009
yo...

although it's the end of 'n',
but there's always smthing that keeps me busy..
haha..

want to go out with me?
make an appointment first..
kidding.. lol..

attended math class...
helping cikgu with her suggestion board..

today is a busy day..
no math lesson, but went to sch to help cikgu..
after everything is settled,
went to sakae sushi for lunch..
hmm.. can say it's a combination of bf + lunch + dinner..
haha...

after that, headed to orchard with nicole..
finally her guess watch is back.. haha..
then, add some colouring to my hair..
btw, how am i gonna hide them from mdm nair when im going back to sch?
haih..

that's not the end..
went to hf just to take smthing from my uncle...
we met for less than a minute?

it's around 7++..
i'm still in my sch u..
luckily didnt bump with any teachers..
god bless me..
haha..

of course, headed back home..
planned to meet him inside the mrt...
he asked me to sms him when next stop is serangoon..
in the end, i fell asleep..
i smsed him when i've alr reached kovan..
i was so blur and thought it's only serangoon..
haha..
he boarded the train and was just beside me without me noticing..
i was so blur...
blur blur blur...

yeah, after that, he sent me back home..
finally we met after 5 days?





oh ya, i changed a new hairstyle..
does it suit me? haha
10.09.2009
yooohooo....
finally everything is over...
i mean 'n'...
there's still 'o'...
but at least can relax, relief..
haha...

exam is finished..
that means holiday is coming..

plan plan plan...
any plan?






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