like.NO.others

hi..

i'm saying hi now because im gonna say goodbye later..

why do i keep torturing myself?

i feel so miserable..

i feel pain..

i feel lonely now..

it seems that i really get addicted..

i NEED it now..

tmr is wednesday..

will i regret?

i need some alcohol to make myself drunk..

sometimes it's good to be drunk rather than awake and feel the pain..

i know it's only last for a while, but better than nothing..

i might seem to be a good student, good daughter..

but who really knows the true side of myself?

i really need a quiet place..

a place that i can shout..

shout out all my pain..

and start afresh..

simple life isn't really that bad..

and now my life is so EXTRAordinary..

18..

i think this no. will remain in my memory forever..

started my 18-year old life in a very special way..

no one will expect where and how i celebrated this day..

for those who doesnt know,

i think u all just know i went missing..

just went to somewhere where no one wants to go..

it's cold and i was shivering inside..

a place which full of fear..

felt helpless...

no one can help you there..

only regret that you can feel..

now is 11.45..

i want to sleep..

want to end my today, and start a new tomorrow..

but, cant.. myb insomnia?

hmm...

goodbye...